[The tears were about to break again at that. He wouldn't be saying this if he really knew how depraved he was. How he was the one who causes both their pain, that Huaisang was the one who had orchestrated his own death.]

Er-ge you had a lot happening, with reconstruction and Wangji...you did your best.

I know he was a different person. He was terrified when he did. We are in a place where we don't have to think about the rest of it. I want to make my second life better. I want to make his better as well.

I think the reason it hits so deeply is that I just...You both have such an effect on me. I've loved you and him so deeply. I'm afraid.