I can never be burdened by you, Er-ge. [He said softly, leaning into the touch.]

It's not just after the war. I think I could never be what he thought of me what he wanted me to be. Not in the world we were in. He used to think that everything should have one way to do things, be just and righteous. But Er-ge justice is reserved for the gentry who have high birth.

I...I am reminded of the things I loved and respected about him.

I don't really like the person I am. I don't like the things I've had to do in my life. I really want to be the person the two of you think I am.

Er-ge, every time I am on top of the steps and think I am brimming with happiness, I only get kicked down again.

...I fear happiness and safety.